Upset..

i was so upset,

passing by me a dozen of sins

that i excitedly do it..

i was so foolish.

indeed, i know that is totally wrong by my side..

but why iam just doing it many times..

i was cruel to myself.. i know...

iam so know about it..

iam ashamed of myself.. for doing the unpleasant things...

i try to avoid

i try to forbid

i try to be strong enough facing the temptation

but i always failed..

i was blurred by it's beauty..

oh Allah... what have i done to my self

why i can't even retrain myself of those disgusting things..

i try oh Allah.. but i always can't..

then, i regret of myself....

you the Only Know who i am...

please give me more strength upon this...

i can't anymore in this such a bad condition..

i seek for your blessing....

in my entire life.. duniya wal alkhirah..