i was so upset,
passing by me a dozen of sins
that i excitedly do it..
i was so foolish.
indeed, i know that is totally wrong by my side..
but why iam just doing it many times..
i was cruel to myself.. i know...
iam so know about it..
iam ashamed of myself.. for doing the unpleasant things...
i try to avoid
i try to forbid
i try to be strong enough facing the temptation
but i always failed..
i was blurred by it's beauty..
oh Allah... what have i done to my self
why i can't even retrain myself of those disgusting things..
i try oh Allah.. but i always can't..
then, i regret of myself....
you the Only Know who i am...
please give me more strength upon this...
i can't anymore in this such a bad condition..
i seek for your blessing....
